I have been going through a difficult time lately. Torn between my feelings, unsure of which course of action is correct. One of the most difficult things to deal with is the fact that only I can choose the outcome. And the results of the outcome cannot be blamed on anyone but me. I am soley responsible for the way my life turns out. We are faced with these decisions daily, decisions which change the direction of our life path. Most of the time we do not even pay attention to what we choose. Today I made a choice, a choice only I could make, however my decision was aided by a few people. My wife who made me realize the extent that she loves me and the distance she will go ensure she holds on to what she values. A new friend who risked far more to “do the right thing” than worry about her own relationships and comfort.  Have realized that the hand the wrote it all has a plan. I do not understand it but I trust it. There is a path set out for each of us, deep down we know what it is, our feelings do not lie. Sometimes our judgement is clouded, sometimes we over complicate the simple things in life. It is written and it will be, as time passes so the great plan will unfold. Who am I to rush the journey. I have spent months learning to trust in the natural flow of things, and then I go and try force my hand. Maktub, I trust the journey and I know that I am on the correct path and it will lead me exactly where I am meant to be. Life has provided me with the right people at the right time and has made me who I am. Discomfort comes from stepping out of the natural flow, we sometimes see the path and jump right in with both feet when we should rather trust the process. My journey has been a bumpy ride, not a smooth free flowing stream into the placid lake. The past few years for me have been quite a ride, I guess I could compare it to white water rafting, fast, exciting, scary and the feeling of not being in control, you see the exit shoot but the current rushes you right past. You never know what is around the next corner, a big standing wave ready to tip you out, a fallen tree in the water waiting to drag you under, or a fun run over adrenalin filled rapids. I have glimpsed the future and it is good. I grow old and get to live out the life I choose. Happy with my children and soul mate, sharing stories of our adventures and loving each others company. So it is written and by making the right choices, as I have done, I will end up exactly where I am mean’t to be. Life is a funny old thing and I can feel it having a friendly chuckel at me right now. Laughing with me, telling me to relax slow down it all comes together in the end. Life is saying, enjoy the journey my old friend, your journey is only begining, take it slow accept the gift of today, don’t worry about tomorrow I have taken care of it already. We both know where it leads don’t rush just enjoy the process. Don’t over complicate things, what will be will be, it all works out, it was designed to.
So tonight I am going to bed and I will sleep deeply, relax in the knowing that things are more than ok, they are great. They are exactly as they are meant to be. Everything for a reason and a reason for everything