We all get to choose, everyday we make little choices. Sometimes the effects of us choosing one thing over another are only apparent when someone else makes a choice themselves and it effects us. Today I chose, a decision that has been heavy on my heart for ages. Today I realized that you either jump write in or stay completely out of it. If you hanging from the edge allnthat happens is the people around you get hurt. Today I was told that sometimes by not choosing in order not to hurt someone you cause far more hurt than just making your choice and going for it. I also realized that some choices take time and yoy really need to looknat every angle, every scenario, every oitcome, and weigh it all up. Then choose and get your mind set on the choice only to hear, feel or do something at the last minute to change your mind. I heard from “wize council” today that sometimes yoummust not follow your heart. In fact I have heard every argument as to why one should make certain choices.
In conculsion I have boiled it down to my own formula, something that works for me. It probably will not work for anyone else, and when faced with another coice I may have a different method in arriving at my final choice. However today my choice boiled down to this.
People were hurting badly, people I loved and cared for, they were hurting because I had a struggle going on inside me. I had made a choice that I was 99% certain on. We couldn’t go on, something was about to snap and I held the release button. I was the cause of all the hurt and I could not carry that. So I chose, and it felt good, finality, my mind at ease, then I changed my mind. A spur of the moment decision. I decided to stay, give it another go, try again, not to give up.
If I think were I would be right now had I stuck to my original decision I would not be a happy man.
I have made the right choice. Am I filled with joy and peace right now? To say yes would be a lie, but I am feeling much better here than I would be had I chosen otherwise. I am at home with the people I love.
Would things have been ok had I chosen otherwise? Most definately, things would have eventually worked out just fine. Cuts heal but they someimes leave scars.
Should I have chosen otherwise. Absolutly not, I have made the right choice.
So what is the lesson…….
Well after all everyone has said, I realise that we each have free choice. Our choices have consequences. Our failure to choose has consequences and it can hurt more people than need to be hurt had you just made the choice. We can listen to others but we have to make our own choice it we want to control our own lives. Tough situations make people wake up and relook life. Though situations make people appreciate what they got, who they got and respect the fact that decisions map out your path.
So tomorrow when faced with a decision, choose to be happy, choose life, choose love. Tomorrow choose to have an adventure, choose to walk with your head up. Tomorrow choose to make a difference, choose to smile. We do not know what the future may bring but should not scare us from choosing to live flat out. I choose life, adventure, new beginnings and my right to make my own choice.
Thank you to everyone who was part of my journey, I am sorry to have hurt you all so deeply. I have fought and battled within my mind and I have won. Today the victory is mine. Tomorrow we live to keep fighting the good fight. Thank you to all you who fought on my side, even when it felt like you were fighting against me, you were only trying to help. Thank you tomthosemthat fought at my side, you encouraged me to make a stand for how I felt and not just accept what was. Thank you for getting me through to the other side.
It is now time to rest and recover and start out on a new journey onwards and upwards 🙂